(Start the video before you start reading. It will help you feel what I’m saying. And it’s all about the feeling, dontcha know!)
I went beyond the exercise instructions a few weeks ago, and in addition to the assigned recordings, I added myself reading Scroll II. It was weird, listening to my own voice at first, but I quickly got comfortable with it. I read my DMP, PPN’s, Giving and Receiving cards, and the others to some favorite upbeat music, but I felt like Scroll II deserved some great Kenny G.
So, I was at work earlier this week, and as things go there, the usual BS was cranked up on high, so instead of doing what I used to do – which was get cranked up right along with it, I said to myself, “I am not participating in this,” and put my headphones on and hit the repeat button. I heard the soothing sounds of Kenny G start, then I heard myself – calm and quietly say, “Failure no longer is my payment for struggle. Chapter Nine, The Scroll Marked II. I greet this day with love in my heart.” I immediately felt the pounding in my head go away, my breathing slowed, and the tension in my head, neck and shoulders relaxed. I just let that seven minutes repeat over and over until the irritating situations were banished from my mind.
I’m one of those who learns musically – I’ve always loved lyrics – especially complicated ones (“Blinded By The Light”, “Killer Queen”, etc.) so this has been my favorite assignment thus far.
Listening to the recording sounds like someone who loves me is looking out for me and teaching me. I’m starting to like that person on the recording. I wish I would have gotten to know her a long time ago, but I’m getting to know her now.
Another fun thing this week – – we were not looking forward to the Thanksgiving gathering this year. My husband was so wound up about it that he wasn’t sleeping well for a few days, and kept worrying about everything that had to be done in a very tight time frame. He finally told me that it was going to be a mess. I just said, “Only if that’s what you want it to be,” and told him the thumbnail version of the Law of Attraction, and the Law of Substitution. When our meal was over and we returned home, he said it was the best Thanksgiving he’s had in years, because he decided (there are those two powerful words again!) to think differently!
We also spent a few hours with a widow having lunch with her and bringing a few cards, a small cake and a gift to celebrate her birthday. She kept repeating that she had dreaded this birthday, (due to the number) but it was the best one she’s had in a long time. Giving and receiving, anyone? Yep. What a small thing that was, but she was blessed, and her happiness made our day.
It’s really cool seeing the principles that we’re learning through MKMMA playing out in life. Not that they weren’t there before, but I see them and am starting to understand them now. I’m not doing this perfectly. I miss things, I forget things, I restart the mental diet about every ten minutes, but I am so glad to be part of this! I’m so grateful for the previous class who put the pay-it-forward scholarship into effect. I couldn’t have been a part without that vision.