It’s done. But not really! I’m zipping out of town in a moment, and will rush back to be home on Sunday for the final webbie, so will just write a few thoughts now. Day-to-day over the last six months, I’ve seen not much progress, but now looking back over the entirety of the MKMMA experience, Wow!
I looked forward to the start with anticipation, knowing it’s where I belonged – remembering that “when the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” Now I know who the teacher is. I did a lot of fighting to not quit for the first several weeks, and I didn’t. I never got my DMP done, so most of the other exercises were lost on me – I have no idea what my PPN’s are or should be – most of the cement is still there. The poster board is still sitting in the corner waiting for the DMP which is waiting for the PPN’s .
I’ve been re-listening to the first several webinar recordings, which were so confusing to me at the beginning – they are starting to make some sense. Now I finally understand the compass thing!
I have gone through (and continue to go though) some of the most difficult times of my big-girl life since December, and I know I would not have handled it nearly as well if it hadn’t been for MKMMA. I have come across several people whom I’ve come to admire through the reading of their blogs (Monika, Jason H., MaryLou). I’ve come to think of Mark, Davene and Trish as friends. I thank Derek A. for sharing this with me last summer.
When I awake with anxiety in the wee hours, I can sometimes return to sleep remembering that I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. I think I now know what I’m pretending not to know. I think I know what the person I intend to become would do next. I’m looking forward to my 48 hours of solitude next month. I know that failure no longer is my payment for struggle, because I greet this day with love in my heart. I persist until I succeeds because I am nature’s great miracle, and want to always live each day as if it’s my last.
What does bring me to tears is that I feel like I know my Creator so much better than I did six months ago, and I know that I know that I know that He loves me and holds me in the palm of His hand, and I better know how to connect to His heart. Thank you, Mark, Davene, and the whole team for all of those things, and more!
Thanks for sharing your thoughts Nancy. I pray you will find your true calling soon. Keep enjoying your journey!
Nancy, so happy to see that you are continuing on this fabulous journey of self-discovery and awakening the miracle that God created us to be! Also so encouraged to know that I’m not the only one on whom most of the exercises were somewhat lost? I was so busy trying to figure out the technical demands (recording reading to music, doing Twitter, Facebook and blogs and adding fun things to them) that I got really behind on the service cards, the shapes, etc. I think my biggest challenge was I could never bring myself to actually feel that “burning desire” to carry out my DMP, even though I know without a doubt my two are Liberty and Helping Others. I could write a pretty convincing “press release” about my future self, but couldn’t bring myself to even keep reading it as instructed because it didn’t feel real. I guess my concrete is still pretty thick, but I am encouraged by the breakthroughs I did experience, which is why I’m back to go through it again. Perhaps I can take you up on your offer to walk me through the technique of finding music or videos or clip art to insert in my blogs? I would find one I liked, but it wouldn’t download, or I would need to buy it, or it wouldn’t show up in my blog if I did get that far… Second time around should be a success! Now I will go back and do Week 24 — Do It Now — better late than never?? I’m so glad you have enjoyed my posts, as I have yours, and look forward to sharing many more! Be blessed, my teammate!
So glad you are continuing as well! I’d be happy to do what I can to help with your tech issues – even though I’m no expert!